Halle's reticence to demonstrate proto-mothering skills (I've been reading Jared Diamond) didn't bother me, but I've been curious about her disinterest in choosing a "lovie;" you know, the blankie/teddy/toy truck a little kid lugs around the house and to the grocery store, and who winds up in your lap at the end of the day, with your sticky-faced kid and a half-drunk bottle of milk. At Halle's age I had my Baba Bear (still a proud member of this household) and Tom had Killy the Whale (also an esteemed tenant), and I'm pretty sure all of my siblings had their own lovies. In a particularly gruesome airport incident, my brother Alex's beloved koala, who had a key on its tummy that could be wound up to play "Kookaburra," was disemboweled by a TSA official looking for (drugs? bombs? contraband binkies?) while my brother screamed, "They're killing Musical Bear! They're killing Musical Bear!" I hope that TSA agent is haunted by nightmares of vengeful koalas. But the point is, I've been waiting to meet Halle's lovie. And the doll didn't seem a likely candidate.
But then it happened.
Halle's Baby. One minute the recipient of repeated body slams, and the next so necessary to bedtime that we had to go downstairs in the middle of a story to retrieve her. Baby snuggled with us on the big chair, and when Halle fell asleep the doll was cradled to her chest. As I write, the two of them are sleeping in the crib, thick lashes resting on two pairs of chubby cheeks.
Look, I don't want to idealize their relationship. I had to rescue Baby from the bathroom garbage and the tub this evening, and Halle's at least as interested in pulling Baby's auburn hair out as she is in cradling her. Who knows if this is the beginning of a beautiful friendship or a casual fling? All I know is that it delights me to no end to see her cradle and bounce her baby the way I've shown her. And to give it kisses and hugs and hold it close.
I know some of you are thinking that I'm engaging in horrific behavioral gender stamping, and to you I say: Phooey. First of all, I'd encourage a son to be just as nurturing. And secondly, very little children enjoy participating in daily tasks like cooking, cleaning and caring for babies. Besides, like any lovie, maybe Baby will become a source of constancy and comfort for Halle, and that's important when you're little and always being hauled from one place to the next. There's a reason Baba Bear followed me all the way to my marriage bed (where he was promptly exiled by Tom to the bookshelf, despite my efforts to place him and Killy on our pillows), and that's because for a long time Baba was an integral aspect of the way I defined "home." Obviously there's nothing wrong with a child who doesn't choose a lovie. But a lovie is a both a signifier of home and a way for children to practice love.
For now, Halle has Baby. And we have Halle. Lovies all around.